Today was spent staring at the lease application, and being struck with fear. I was afraid that I had crowed too much too soon about this wonderful place that in my mind I've already moved to, and that the fates would punish me by pulling rug out now. I was afraid I wasn't grown-up enough to fill out the application properly. I was afraid I would be turned down, ashamed, stuck in Murphys.
This is silly! I have a friend, who announced recently that she had no fear. It was such a calm and sure statement, so beautifully confident that the room we were in was struck in golden silence for a moment. I am remembering her today, with gratitude, and I am borrowing her fearlessness. And I am remembering the statement that courage is being afraid and doing it anyway.
I am on my own, but I am never alone. I am simply not dependent on another person to provide my happiness or security - or to fill out a lease application for me!
Where are you moving to? Please don't leave me!!!!!!!
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